"No one can tear me down with as much ferocity and efficiency as me."
"The bathroom paper towel machine motion sensor failing to react to me does nothing for my self esteem."
"It’s never about me, especially when I think it is. Except when it is and I’m totally oblivious."
"Please don’t become one of those people who only see love as something that has to be perfect. Don’t grow up to be such a sad adult."
"Being a kind and caring soul, at times, carries the appearance of deception. People entrust kind souls with things in confidence. This can be a torturous thing to undertake as one must wrestle with the morality of just not ones self, but the self of the other that left such things in confidence. When things given in confidence conflict. it becomes and twisted game, not of lies, but of sorting out levels of loyalty. And that is the dilemma, as I feel that loyalty should not be sorted among friends. It is difficult to not become a pawn in another’s deception, yet save face. So events coincide and the “asshole clause” must be invoked. Damage is inevitable and cannot always be controlled."
"He found himself understanding the wearisomeness of this life,where every path was an improvisation and a considerable part of one’s waking life was spent watching one’s feet."
"I hold a strange fascination to sorrow. Grief. Despair. There is a certain primal tone. When all other aspects of life are stripped away and all that is left is pure, naked humanity. I think we live the most when all that we want is to die."
"I am not me. I have become vacant."
"I have never felt so simultaneously alive and dead."
"Your life thus far has been defined by idiots."
"If you can’t love yourself, I guess that’s it then."
"I wish I knew how to love someone without killing myself. How to mend hearts without breaking my own. How to kiss and not create bruises."
"I may be 31, but I’ve lived my life several times over in my head. How? I map out multiple scenarios. Even when making small decisions, such as what to eat for dinner, I imagine the pros and cons and live the experience in my mind. Big decisions are done in worst-case scenario maps. Ultimately, some may say that this is no way to live… but there is a reason my life isn’t a fucking mess. It could have been… I have a map for that."
"But I meant every word I said
From deranged to divine
And I would do it all again
As if for the first time"
"When you get down to it, most of us are just trying to die a little slower."